Love Is A Power Stronger Than Death

How many of us are wanting love and looking for love?  I would say that everyone wants love.  But if everyone is capable of giving love and everyone wants to receive love then why is it that love is often so elusive???

Love is something that HAS to start from your complete understanding of whom God created you to be.  But the problem with that is when we are born and when we are coming up and growing up and the fabric of our beings are formed in our minds......................many times we are given very wrong and very negative images on which to nourish our positive self image. 

We are taught to read.  We are taught to tie our shoes.  We are taught to say "thank you" & "please".  We are taught how to do our times tables.  We are taught many things that are supposed to make us viable members of the society in which we live.  But rarely do we get "love lessons".  And love is the most potent of all lessons on life. 

But I want for us to take some time and look into the mirrors of our hearts and begin to open up our beings and begin to love.  I want for us to understand that we are made in God's image.  I don't care how tall, how short, how fat, how nappy your hair, dark your skin, light your skin, big your booty, small your breast, hard your chest, long your man spear is.  (yea I went there!) You are made the exact way that God wants for you to look.  Accept that the way you look is good enough.  Then treat yourself the way that you want to be treated.  So many of us are waiting for the man of our dreams to come along and treat us like the princess or the queen or the empress.  Or we are waiting on the woman with the perfect shaped body and the prowess of a tiger to come along and make us feel that we are the man that we want to be. But if you are not already the love that you want you are only getting a portion of your hearts desire.

I am an only child and I grew up in a single parent home.  My mother was going to school AND working.  So a lot of my time was spent alone.  So when I went to school and the other girls called me a big tall amazon.  I got a horrible self image.  There was no one to tell me that my height was God ordained and to wear it beautifully and be confident in it.  I begin to walk hunched over and awkward so that I wouldn't be so tall. 

I am a survivor of many different kinds of abuse.........................and trust that NONE of my abusers ever inflated my self esteem! In fact they wanted it to be bruised and brittle so that they could satisfy their warped sense of getting their needs met by making me feel small and wrong and powerless. 

But as I began to mature into a woman and I began to search for my own personal truth I began to understand that God made me tall and light and curvy and there is nothing wrong with it.  I began to understand that before God separated the wet land from the dry land, and place the sun in the sky in the day and the moon to reflect the power of the sun at night that he had already made Okima in his creation plan.  He knew exactly where I would be placed in time and what my gifts to this world would be.  When I began to understand that I began to understand that God had already placed love in me long before I even knew myself. 

God placed so much love in me that the little girl who is abused and who is also me.......................I went back into the dark places in my heart and mind and I kissed away that little girls pain.  Since no one would love her correctly..................God showed me that the love that HE placed into my heart was all the love that was needed.  God's love is as deep and wide as the ocean and so is the love that he has given to me.

Love is no longer elusive to me.  Thank you Lord.......for that intimate, sweet, passionate, knowledge. And when that time is right I will pass that love on in droves!